This year has been an absolute rollercoaster!
Despite all the horrendous political outcomes and losing so many people, I’ve learnt a lot of things – one of them being ‘sometimes you have to take the walk alone.’ I’ve experienced so many things this year and travelled a lot and for that I am forever grateful.
I’ve been more involved in expressing my political views and my confidence has built immensely.
It became more apparent (especially towards the end of the year) that I had to stand on my own two feet. I’d like to believe I’m independent, not only in the sense that I don’t need a man to rely on, but in the sense that I am focused and so determined to reach my goals and make this Journalist career a success.
I am a firm believer of the saying ‘whatever is meant to be will always find its way’ but I also believe you shouldn’t give up on something you can’t go a day not thinking about. So, I’m working on it. Honestly, I don’t know if it will work but if you never try, you never know, right? That’s another thing, taking risks. I’ve taken many risks this year and I’ve not regretted a single one; I knew if I didn’t take the opportunity, I would regret it. (I wrote a whole article about this – The Only Thing Worse Than Death Is A Regret Filled Coffin.
I turned 18 a couple of weeks ago and in my mind I had this ideal image of becoming an adult and having everything together. But, this was not the case at all: I was an absolute mess. I don’t know why this was, maybe because A Level stress was building up. I still don’t know. I then thought, what am I achieving by sitting here sulking? I should do something about it. The whole my life I’ve been told, ‘you fall, you get back up’ and I guess I had to constantly repeat this to myself. Of course nothing got better straight away and yes, everything takes its time and that’s just a constant reminder I had to keep telling myself.
I tried to take my mind off things and I started to work on my 2017 vision board earlier than usual. It made me realise that I shouldn’t worry and stress over things that are no longer in my control. I guess I can try, but if its not meant to be, I can’t force it to happen.
We all encounter certain situations in life differently. Some, earlier. Others, not as quick. But that’s okay; its how life works – that’s how we all help one another.
Sometimes you have to take the walk alone, I cannot express enough how relatable this quote is. I’ve had to remove myself from certain situations this year that were doing me no good and I had to take time to focus on myself. I know this might sound silly to some extent but if I have to, I’ll go sit in a coffee shop myself in order to focus. At the beginning, I was very hesitant thinking others will assume ‘what a loner’ but it doesn’t matter; I’ve realised I got a lot of things done and I’m happy and that’s what matters the most.
I want to say a massive thank you to all the girls at Ursuline. When I think about leaving in 2017, it genuinely makes me feel disheartened.
Although we will all move onto bigger and better places and experience new things, joining you all a year and a half ago was one of the best decisions I have ever made. So thank you for welcoming me into your family and always being here.
Thank you to The Fashion Culte and The Daily Spectacle for having me as your ‘youngest writer’.
I’ve grown a lot (definitely not in terms of height lol) but as an individual and I guess it was the difficult times that actually helped me do this. So, see every hardship life may throw at you as an opportunity to grow and become more aware of life around you. Reflect on everything positively. Everything happens for a reason and just live life to its fullest without regretting a single thing.